My weight loss journey started when I was about 15 years old. In April of 2016, my mom suggested that I get a personal trainer she could tell that I was unhealthy & unhappy. My sister had always been the one to be fit and in shape, so like my normal self, I tried to be the opposite and just do my own thing. I was a compulsive stress eater. Some of my favorites were goldfish dipped in peanut butter, anything with chocolate in it, and anything that was candy. I was about 155 pounds and only 5 feet, 6 inches. I was not focused on my health at all.
My entire life, I have struggled with anxiety and depression. As long as I can remember, it has been a constant round of psychiatrists and physiologists. Most people who meet me are surprised when they learn that I have anxiety. I am outgoing and talk A LOT…. which is part of my anxiety safe wall. For the most part, I would say that I am good with people and that I am a very, hard worker. I try my best always but, do not always put myself first.
Deciding to become healthy mentally and physically was a huge change for me. The first few months were a constant battle of being hungry and feeling like I couldn’t do it. I knew where I wanted to be, and I was so far from that. I started going to the gym 3-4 times a week and completely changing my diet. I ate oatmeal, rice, chicken, and broccoli for months. I would run with water in my mouth for 15 minutes to keep up my heart rate. I would trudge a long on the stair stepper until I couldn’t anymore. I would get up early and walk a mile on my neighborhood path every morning to get cardio in. I have my mom to thank for all of this- because I would probably still be unhappy and unhealthy if she didn’t push me in the right direction. I have never been one to listen to my mom’s advice the 1st time around (sorry mom) but, I knew deep down that something had to change.
I lost about 12 pounds that summer, and I was so happy. I knew I had a long way to go, but I was going somewhere. I continued to trudge along, making mistakes along the way, but trying my best. Temptation was everywhere, and when everyone around you likes McDonald’s and Chick Fil A, it’s not always easy to stay on the right track. I’m also a huge sweet tea lover, which is an unfortunate number of calories. That following fall, I started to make some bad choices. I wasn’t eating great or doing my best anymore, in any aspect of life, so I made some more changes. I got back on my healthy eating kick and started going to Pure Barre with one of my friends. I fell in love with Pure Barre and started out going a few days a week. I got a new trainer and adjusted my diet to my life style- cutting out some gluten and dairy, adding more fruits and vegetables.
I was happy again. I was working out upwards of 5 days a week and feeling better in my own skin. I ended up dropping another 15 pounds within that year and maintained keeping it off. I went to Pure Barre and the gym consistently, adding in spin to my workout regimen and finding classes at the gym that I liked, so that I could look forward to going. Being the girl who lost 30 pounds wasn’t so bad.
All of this was hard for me, but I am so happy to be where I am. I still cheat and eat sweets once in awhile, I will skip a workout if I am too exhausted, and I am never going to love eating healthy 100%. I am always open to helping people find their healthy balance as people helped me. I am 30 pounds less and so focused on my health. I am so thankful for everyone who helped me throughout my journey and I hope to continue it for the rest of my life.